Anxiety sucks

 This blog is all about anxiety. I struggle and struggle and think I am getting better but then have a wave of crazy that I can’t control. Today I am a terrible mom who wants to encourage her daughter to watch a movie in sciences that gives her anxiety because I know she can do it. Dad thinks we shouldn’t make her. Yesterday my son had an anxiety attack about a baseball game and I couldn’t help him and we ended up missing it and dad thought he should just back up and go and deal with it. Somehow my husband and I are off. We don’t agree much anymore on a lot and I feel like we argue all the time. I love him with my life. He makes me whole so what is wrong? I finally have an appointment with a counselor, but I already don’t want to do that because it causes anxiety. I am lost and sad. 

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